When they were alone, He explained all things to His disciples. — Mark 4:34

  Jesus doesn’t take us away and enlighten us all the time; He explains things to us as we are able to comprehend them. It is a slow work for us to examine our own souls. It takes God all of time and eternity to get us to conform to His will. We can only be used by God completely after we allow the deep hidden areas of our own character to be exposed. It is shocking how unaware we are about ourselves! We don’t even identify the laziness, or pride within us when we see it. Jesus, however, will expose to us everything we have held within ourselves before His grace began to work. How many of us have learned to look deeply within ourselves with courage?

  We have to get rid of the belief that we fully understand ourselves. That is always the last bit of pride to go. The only One who understands us fully is God. What is our greatest curse in life? Pride! If we have ever had a glimpse of what we are like in the sight of God, we will never say, “Oh, I’m so unworthy.” As long as there is any doubt that we are unworthy, God will continue to close us in until He gets us alone. Whenever there is any hint of pride or conceit remaining, Jesus can’t teach us anything. He will allow us to experience heartbreak or the disappointment we feel when our learned pride is wounded. He will expose numerous misplaced affections or desires— things over which we never thought He would have to get us alone. Many things are shown to us, often without effect. But when God gets us alone over them, they will be clear. We who were once blind will now see what has been in the Light all along.

  When we are born again, the Holy Spirit begins to work His new creation in us, and there will come a time when there is not a bit of the old self left. The old self-worth goes, the old attitude to things goes, and "all things are of God." How are we going to get the life that has no lust, no self-centeredness, and no hypersensitivity, but then replace it with love that is not provoked, that thinks no evil, that is always kind etc.? The only way is by allowing not a bit of the old life to be left; but only a pure and simple trust in God. This will be the kind of trust that isn’t just looking for God’s blessings, but more of Himself. Have we come to the place in our spiritual walk to where God can withdraw His blessings and it does not affect our trust in Him? Perhaps we are more preoccupied with getting what we want from God rather than giving God what He deserves. Our full and undivided trust in Him! When we come to see God at work in our lives, we will never bother our heads about things that happen, because then we are actually walking and trusting in our Father in Heaven.

With brotherly affection,